Last
night, and into the night, and into today, I was feeling the lack of
the love once professed, from a heart that, now, seems as cold as the
inside of the core of the heart of darkness. I know that this is the
one that God intended for me. There are many reasons I know this to
be true, but they are still free to choose. Detail after detail after
detail, once I find it, points to God. Even the first letters of the
name by which I know them are a transliteration of the Hebrew
diminutive for God. I, therefore, know it to be true, but they have
freedom to choose. It makes me wonder if they have ever asked God
what to choose.
Is
it wise for me to ask why He keeps them so completely far from me?
Rather, let me take up my cross and follow Him, forgetting, perhaps,
that they even have ever been born.
Oh!
How I wish I could!
Father,
forgive a lonely, wounded, broken heart for crying out in pain, and
let it know your Love, again! Amen!
What
you should see in the passage above is not antipathy, but pain; not
hatred, but love.
How
many times! How many times have you caused another such pain that
they could bring themselves to wish that they never even knew that
you had ever existed? Don’t be afraid of it. Face it! If you never
face your guilt you will never know forgiveness because you will not
see your need. If you only ever make excuses you are making excuses
for hell, when all the while, God wants you in Heaven.
You
see, those who refuse to repent are refusing to be forgiven. The most
glorious prize in all existence is waiting for them, but it is
waiting for them at the foot of a cross. If you will not look on the
cross you will never see what waits there for you. If you will never
approach and embrace that cross you will never receive what is there
for the taking because it is under the cross, and you have to take up
your cross to follow Him.
When
you lay your cross down you pinion Him to it so that He cannot lead
you. Because of this you must take up your cross every day and follow
Him, following Him wherever He may go.
The
prize is yours for the taking.
Take
up your cross, and follow.
Amen!